But my necessities press hard upon me! If I stay in this condition, my damnation is certain. It is possible, however, that there may be some hope. If I go to him, and venture to lay myself at his feet, it cannot make my condition worse. I will therefore go and confess my sins, and see if there is any mercy for me. But what will I say? I tremble to think of appearing before him, whose name I have dishonored, whose blood I have trifled with, whose mercies I have abused, and whose calls and invitations I have slighted. However, I will go, and if I perish, I perish." |
