We went to church every Sunday Morning and even some evenings. My dad was a deacon in the church and our family were well known in the community.

My dad is a dentist and financially we were in a very privileged position. I was in the popular group in school, was deputy head girl and Captain of the first team hockey - status, money, clothes and worldly things were my main priority in life and I measured success thereto.

In university I would some times go to church when I felt like it and I would now and then do bible study just to ease my conscience. When it came to exams I used God as a spare wheel and would plead in prayer that He would give me strength and that he would lead me in the exam as if I deserved it. The worst is that each time I would plead in prayer God would answer my prayers just like he did with Israel.

When the exams were finished I will forget all about God. I had no relationship with God and did not have a hunger for his word or for righteousness.

In University I will go out in the evenings and misuse alcohol and did not even feel bad about it. I did not even felt like I was sinning, I will gossip and use fowl language and justified myself that everybody else was doing it. I was a worldly person and sin was my slave master.

I took it for granted that I was part of Gods Kingdom and that I would one day inherit eternal life. I taught that I was a good person, that I did not sin as much as other people did and that I therefore deserved heaven.

In the end of 2007 Andre came to me the day Rikus talked to him. He told me that he needed to talk to me about our life in general and our religion. I felt offended and told him that I was in right standing before God and that there was nothing wrong with my life. I told him that he was full of sin but that I was perfectly fine. Luckily trough grace God gave Andre the passions' and love for my soul. Trough grace God opened my eyes and softened my heart for the truth that evening. Andre kept on talking to me and a few hours later I realised that I was lost and my soul was lost and that I needed Jesus Christ desperately, because I deserved hell, and definitively did not deserve heaven at all. We went on our knees together and read Psalm 51 and prayed. I repented and laid all my sins before Jesus Christ and asked him to take in on the cross with him. I felt free and felt like a new person. I had a hunger for God's word and had a hunger to build a relationship, seeking his righteousness. In the past where I would make decisions without even thinking of taking God into consideration, God was now the centre point and making decisions now, I would pray and talk to God, I trusted God and wanted his will to reign in my life.

I became dependent on God, and prayer became very important to me. Each day I could feel how I am more dead to sin through Jesus Christ and his grace.

I will never be perfect as the lamb who died on the cross for my sins. I will never deserve heaven and will never be able to do anything that will make me holy. Jesus Christ is the only way, and I thank God that he loved me so much, that he sent his only son to die on the cross and pay the ransom for my sins. For that I will be indebted to God eternally.

I thank God today and everyday, that I can be a bond servant of God, and I pray that I will always live for his kingdom and not my own.